Mood: Slightly agrivated
Listening to: Synesthesia -- A.F.I. (Why so many Emo bands lately?)
Working on: Everything's postponed due to band


I apologize in advance that this is a band rant and for the length. It's the only thing in my life currently and it's the only thing I have to talk about ... well not the only thing. But it's the most time consuming. I really only expect Brittany to reply because she can relate to this the most. Maybe Amy and Keeney, but they didn't really care about drama last year and that's all this is.

Most people know how I don't like being arrogant. Most of the time that is. This is one of the few times where I am better than the people in charge and I along with the instructors know it. Next year if I don't get captian for guard, I don't know what I'm going to do. Tonight was rediculous. We had a sabre sectional. I'm on sabre line because I'm a veteran from last year. The only one on the line that isn't a vet is Justin and he's just ... he's insane good at sabre. I love Justin and I have no problem with him. The thing about the sabre line is that they are so freaking arrogant. They think that they have it all perfect and they don't need practice at all. So as a substitution for practicing they talk about everyone else. You won't beleive the gossip that comes out of these girl's mouths. It makes me sick sometimes. It also makes me sick that they whine about how no one else practices, yet what are they not doing. Every day after school I practice my flag and sabre work with my free time because I want to be good. I'm the only vet that stays after, and me and Justin are the only ones on the line that stay after. The rest of the line arrives five minutes before we're supposed ot be on the feild. No, I shouldn't say this because I don't really have a problem with the timing of the rest of the line. It's just the captains. One of the captains in fact is constantly late because she's off with her boyfriend making out. These are a few things that I've heard in our sectionals.
"Oh, Doug won't talk to me as much anymore when we're like the best friends ever." In talking about another guy in band. Exact words I swear. It sounds so much like a valley girl.
"Yeah, me and Frank got high last week." In talking about what someone did last week, obviously.
"Oh, well I don't like doing that count of the work so we're not going to do it." While we were doing the work and ... -seeths- ... our captain actually said this about work and is so lazy. I can't respect a captain like that. I can't and it's getting to the breaking point. Five more weeks. I just need to think about that, five more weeks. I don't have a problem with the rest of the girls in the guard. I love them in fact. It's the vets, I can't stand most of them.

There was more that happened during sectionals, but if I were to go into that I would be here all night. I spent an hour ranting to my mom about it and I still didn't get all of it out.

After practice was really when I could express my opinion to the people that care. I walk into the band room because I needed to get my bookbag and I needed to go to the bathroom. After I got back from the bathroom all the flags were on the floor and Kara (the feild instructor, pretty much she calls all the shots) was going through them. I had no idea why but I wanted to help her because I like Kara and I like to help my section. Note this though, practice ended at 8:30 and it was 8:50 now. The thing with Kara is that everyone hates her for some reason. Or at least the sabres hate her from what I hear. I find myself saying, "Am I the only one that likes Kara?" A few people say that I wasn't there freshman year. Or that I don't really know what she's like because I don't play an instrument. What I think it is is that Kara's mean to people who don't do their work. She's hard on people with attitudes and on people who don't respect her. I know my work, I don't have attitudes with adults to their faces because that's how I was raised, and I respect her imensely because she knows what she's doing. Yes I have my moments where I don't think she's completely competent, but I still respect her. Others say that they hate her because she fired Dave. Dave was an ass (excuse my language) of an instructor. He should never have been hired in the first place and that's all I'm going to say about him.
Anyways, I digress ...
So I'm helping Kara with flags and organizing them. The problem with the flags is that people keep taking each other's flags and we needed to sort them and put them in flag bags. I was there until 9:30, and hour after practice ended helping her sort flags and lable them in flag bags. I'm so glad I did this because I had another chance to show her how dedicated I am to guard. This is the second or third time that I've stayed after with her to take care of guard things. She asked me why the captains don't do what I'm doings. I tell her the truth, "The captains from what I notice, are the last ones to get here and the first ones to leave." I told her and I don't regret it because I hate how they run my guard. And yes, this is where I will be arrogant. My guard because I stayed after an hour to fix your flags, my guard because I help anyone after school that needs to learn things. My guard because I organize sectionals before practice so that we will be better. My guard because I ask questions and get my drill right instead of guessing it. My guard because I give a crap about the whole and give help when needed instead of yelling "Learn your work!" at whoever is messing up and then turning around and calling the girl "Stupid" and "F---ing retarded" to the person next to them. This will be my guard next year and it will be different.